“Me and you, and you and me. No mather how they toss the dice, it’s ment to be”

Untill the dice tosses up the break-up side. How ment to be was that?
As everybody seemed to be oh so happy with their one-a-week relationships, I never seemed to be the lucky one. Looking around I realised: love flies. Love flies from person to person, from country to country. And this year, was not my love year. It was not my financial year eigther. It was my year to find my peace and sort things out. Wether this is about my bra-drawer, or the step to my future job. Love comes and goes, but a job ain’t like a butterfly. How can people dedicate their entire life taking care of their loved ones, while they could have had a great job that gives them somethng other to think about then the discount on kids shoes and the vacum cleaner?
That must be one steady butterfly in their hearts....

I know, I know, it's no Halloween yet, but since it falls in the middle of the week, we decided to hold a party this saturday.

20:00
when I enter the front door, a Wobble, drukish, and gigling Rowen hung on a door to keep up straight. Walking towards the kitchen, a deep, dark smell of weed smacked me in the face. And there stood Thomas, Rowen's latest boyfriend, baking Spacebrownies, with an already not to clear Rowen. During the baking we got bored, and Thomas came with the great idea to smoke some weed, outside. as we all passed it trough, Thomas and I seemed to be the only one not feeling anything. The 13 year old girls who were there seemed to be tottaly out of this world.

20:30
Since the brownies were still in the oven, Thomas smoked his last joint, with more little kids beeing there, getting totally wasted with just 1 single beer. Yet again, Thomas and I just sat there, smoking, not feeling anything, and seeing the others fall, trip, and laugh out way to loud.

I must admid, they were really good. Chocolatery, and yet kinda spicy by the weed. Still no sign of falling over, seeing the world weird, or feeling the need to run around naked, I felt so uncomfortable. my situation:
I was in a house, for a sleepover, with 6 druk people, a sober gay guy, and the fact that we probabely would NOT be sleeping inside that night.

21:00
Finaly, someone who was sober entered the drukinsh and weed smelling house. as Celine seemed as the saviour in this madness, she would go to home later, since Rowen's partens didn't agree with us sleeping, me beeing locked out of my own house, and everyone sleeping at home. As Celine and I thought it might be a good idea to ask Rowen for some help, since it was his party. While walking towqards Rowen, he was lying on the ground, with 13 year old kids around him, laughing, and he seeming dead.

23:00
My ex girlfriend Robyn, and her current boyfriend came in. The boyfriend Dennis, not beeing to sober, and she, stunning as she has always been. so now there were 3 sober girls, and that was it. as everybody got even worse, we just sat there, dooing nothing, waiting for the time to go to bed. But going to bed in Rowen's house was not really the plan. His parents thought he had a sleepover at Karina's, and vice versa. The original plan was to go to Molenbos at midnight, tell some spooky stories, go to Rowen's house and sleep. but turns out, we had to sleep op a park bench all night!

0:00
Thank god, we had a place to sleep. Robyn and Dennis were soo very nice to let us crash at their place! Robyn's mother drove us there. Bryan sleeping, dennis drunk, Robyn beeing pretty, Me on her lap, and Rowen and Thomas in the front seat, both pretty wasted.

1:00
once at their place we went to their bedroom, and sat there on the bed. Rowen and Thomas placed themselfes on a pile of laudry, and fell afsleep within 10 minutes. While watching the Nightmare Before Chritmas, Robyn and I were way to close for ex-girlfriends. het boyfriend was to drunk to notice. and we kept getting closer.

3:00
After Nightmare we decided to watch some TV, smoke the last cigarette. Only Dennis, Robyn and I were awake, so we turned all the light off and went to bed. as Dennis had fallen asleep again, Robyn and I just laid there, way to close, way to romantic, and faces and lips way too close.

8:30
everybody was wide awake, and no hangovers. Sfter spending the night with robyn, I did feel kinda guilty. She lived in that house with ehr boyfriend. They have had sex in that very bed. But even though, I felt so happy.

That was our Halloween sleepover. Nothing Halloween 'bout it. Or was there? Was The sight of Rowen almost dying scarry? Well yes, it was. Will beeing drunk, and getting stoned, the new way of having fun? Where are the good old days...

Why let's give a HUGE thanks to for tagging me, so now I have to come up with 8 useless facts about myself..well there are over a thousand, but still.

The rules:

1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

Useless Facts:

1. My day starts off with an Irish Coffee, just to get me going.
2. I hate a lot of people who don't know that I hate them.
3. The smallest thing pisses me off.
4. When people get in my head, or my life, I back out.
5. My bigges fear is Dying in front of my lover's eyes.
6. I streighten my hair every day, and nobody knows.
7. My biggest obession is the Female Body.
8. Lot of big shit talking, and an awfull lot of shouting when I reach there.


so..I have to tag 8 people..but..I don't even know 8 people! *dude I'm pathatic*
wel..I;m gonna Tag
ayway..sooo! you go and enjoy us girl!

yeah, well, ehm, very..blanky!
I deleted about my whole gallery, and I like it.
all the shit out of my way.
There will be more up soon, I promisse, but I wanna be in 1 style, not fuck around so much..
I'm gonna focus more on photoshop then photography, since it doesn't get my attention anymore.
I am working on my own little helper.
His name is Snugger, an adorable moose, who will help me with everything..^^

You can find him in my gallery soon enough.

hi guys..
I know my last journal wasn't full of fun...But now I have some exciting news! for just 16 euro's I bought new printy pretty paper for my walls..it was €2,- a roll, so I just went out and got it..^^
I'm stepping of the "white wall with posters" thing, and turning my Bedroom into a Barok and Venice Carneval room. 1 Barok printed wall, and the rest is gonna be brown/rock printed. I'm busy making drawings, costumes, and ofcourse, Carneval masks! ^^ and the great thing is, the whole room change will cost me €50,- max.!
I'm using old Christmas decorations, second hand clothing, old cans of paint, used curtains...I'm so excited about it..^^
there will be pictures of the masks and drawings in my gallery and scraps soon...